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How To Be Known at a New School!

Going to a new school is a great challenge but becoming a known (popular) student is a whole different ball game. When you first come you dont want to seem too thirsty to hop into a crowd. First you have to knid of sit back and observe the kind of people that you are around. Some just have that vibe that says that you dont want to deal with them at all. But after you observe and figure out who it is if anybody that you want to clique up with then you make your moves. Dont be so shy, try to comment on different conversations (nothing too personal). Once they see that you may have at least a little bit of sense then may may start considering to accept you. Along the course of the few weeks or so try to communicate a little more each day.(try trying a different group ever so often). But after a few weeks of talking to the different crowds of people you should have an interesting selection of friends. Now if anyone asks "Do you know..." everyone could be like"I know her/him and their really cool peoples."

Seeing the Good in the Bad

When I was younger I could always go outside. Whether it was to a friends house or just around the corner to the local park. One day when I decided that I'd stay outside a little while longer than I was supposed to. When I got home i was in a little bit of trouble. My mom put me on punishment and I wasn't allowed to leave off of the block any more for two weeks. But while I was bored staying on the block by myself I figured it was time for me to try to ride my bike. It was always kind of difficult for me but I had plenty of time to learn. But as I tried over my "punishment time" I actually learned to ride a bike. I think that that was a bad idea for me to stay out but it came out to be good. Now I can ride a bike!

*Me^eH* Winter Vacation!

On my winter vacation I spent most of the time at my little sisters house. On the Tuesday after school got out, my siblings and I left and went over our stepsisters house.When we got there we cleaned up a little bit and then watched TV for the night. That morning when we got up..my sisters mom left and went to work. While she was at work we were on the computer playing game and the 2 youngest kids were in the room playing with the dolls. The next day was New Years Eve and I was a little upset because my mom was in the hospital and I didn't want to spend New Years without some more of my family. So later on that day my mom got out of the hospital and asked if we wanted to go over my aunties house. I was so excited because that was also my favorite cousins house. Even though my aunt wasn't there I still had a great time. Me and my cousin sat in the room and talked and laughed all night. It was a nice holiday and I was glad that I didn't have to bring in the New Year by myself. But as far as I know I had a good winter break.

MY FREE TIME:-)

In my free time I,most people don't know it, but I like to read in fact, I LOVE to read.I read everynight before I go to bed or when I'm just sitting around. Another thing I like to do is go outside. When I'm outside I feel like I'm in control of what I do or don't do. Sometimes it's just a pieace of mind or things like that. But when I do get my free time these are the things that I like to do. Even though I don't have a lot of free time I still enjoy the things that I have the chance to do. I feel that people should always try to make free time. It's something about that downtime that calms and relaxes you.

The GHOST in the attic...LOL

I really feel that there is a such thing as ghost. I think that when you die you can go to heaven or hell but maybe you can come back or something like that. Sometimes you can have "unfinished business" and you want to let your "secret" out. Some may just stay behind because they are so attatched to their homes and things like that. I do feel that I'd be scared if i saw one but I kinda believe that they do exist. I think it's the fact of fearing what you can't see and/or fight off. So next time you think you saw a ghost take a second and realize that you may not have been daydreaming you may have really seen A GHOOOOOST!!!

If I knew...

If my friend told me about a secret plan to run away from home I would be a little upset. I would think she was crazy, I'd tell her that she was out of her mind. What she would do to live; eat, sleep, basically where would she LIVE!?! I'd be very upset...I might even tell their parent and if it was because of serious problems at home then I'd let them stay at my house at least til things calmed down. But if it was over something petty then I would tell them their dumb,maybe try to calm them down and persuade them to stay. I believe that they should really think about their future. Tell them to get over it and live with their problems like everyone else does.They can't just run away from their problems, life just doesn't work like that.